This Girl

This Girl

Her life seemed so simple; she had not a care;

the world passing by, with her head in the air. 

She smiled and she laughed never shedding a tear,

no need to cry, she knew not what to fear.

Then darkness crept in voices lurking about, 

they whispered and screamed, filled her heart up with doubt. 

She'd opened herself up to evil, unknowing,

how fast it took over, the emptiness growing.

This girl had erected a wall deep and wide, 

between her and God, a created divide. 

She then turned away from the life that she knew,

as she questioned the reason for all she’d been through. 

As time carried on and her struggles increased, 

she encountered misfortune, an unwelcome beast.

She wanted to pray and to cry out to God,

but she just couldn't do it; thought she'd then be a fraud.

So she counted on family and friends far and wide, 

while the pain and the anger destroyed her inside. 

But onward she trudged with regret and great sorrow, 

and found herself dreading another tomorrow. 

Her days were like torture, her nights filled with fear,

she buried herself deep within for a year.

Withdrawing from all of the people she knew,

she kept it a secret, telling only a few. 

A voice from her past came from out of the blue

with a message of love and great hopefulness too.

Though she tried to believe all the things that he said,

the pain, fear and doubt still consumed this girl’s head.

But nothing was going to turn him away,

because God had decided that he was to stay.

At times her rejection was too much to bear,

yet he never gave up, on his knees, deep in prayer,

His faith in this God, who had died for us all,

was so powerfully strong that he could not withdraw.

The Spirit inside him continued to prod;

 believing one day she’d respond to his God.

Her struggle with God was an arduous road,

she kicked and she screamed, just increasing her load.

Refusing to listen to well-meaning friends, 

this girl was determined to not make amends.

What she didn't know was she had it all wrong, 

her quest to be free meant she had to belong. 

Not to an organized group made of man,

no, freedom for her could be found in His plan. 

God's love is so deep that it's hard to imagine, 

being fully forgiven we cannot truly fathom.

He asks us to trust in what is unseen, 

that only through Him can we find ourselves clean. 

So the day that this girl found herself at His door, 

she still had no clue of the blessings in store.

 Deciding to enter, and look toward His face,

she suddenly found herself covered by Grace.

Oh, what a glorious day when she prayed,

that He would accept her, all tattered and frayed.

She laughed and she cried for the Lord had won out,

this girl now God’s child, beyond any doubt.

God works in mysterious ways but we know,

that a deep transformation our hearts undergo.

Sometimes it takes longer for us to embrace,

the ways of our Lord, but He gives us that space.

For He knows where our hearts lie, His patience is great,

from the love of this God, nothing can separate.

Though evil continues to prowl all about,

our God is much greater, He always wins out.

This girl’s story’s not over, she’s just been forgiven,

her new life ahead, destination is heaven.

Good thing don’t come easy; just keep up the fight,

‘cause deep down she knows that things WILL be all right.

                            Written February, 2011 by LEA