Yesterday Craig apologized to me for scratching my new hardwood floor. I asked him why he had not waited to have me help him move the bookcase back and he said he did it because he knew I did not feel well.
He left for CVS to get a color marker to color the scratches and I continued my nap with my pup on our bed. I wasn't upset. No wave of anger. I knew that he had moved the bookcase without me because he loved me. When he got home I went downstairs and told him the floor didn't matter. Only he mattered. That things get ruined and that just happens. It is because of the times I have stood over his bed worrying that I would loose him, I could say it and mean it. Everything gets realigned..and it is a wonderful gift.
Later Craig told me he saw the wisdom in my getting "distressed" hardwood flooring. Yep, because I knew there would be dents and scratches...But even it I had not done that...it still would not have mattered.
Your life has been changed forever...new eyes, just like when you got back from Bosnia...new new eyes...and I rejoice with you. Love, Patti
Laura,
ReplyDeleteYesterday Craig apologized to me for scratching my new hardwood floor. I asked him why he had not waited to have me help him move the bookcase back and he said he did it because he knew I did not feel well.
He left for CVS to get a color marker to color the scratches and I continued my nap with my pup on our bed. I wasn't upset. No wave of anger. I knew that he had moved the bookcase without me because he loved me. When he got home I went downstairs and told him the floor didn't matter. Only he mattered. That things get ruined and that just happens. It is because of the times I have stood over his bed worrying that I would loose him, I could say it and mean it. Everything gets realigned..and it is a wonderful gift.
Later Craig told me he saw the wisdom in my getting "distressed" hardwood flooring. Yep, because I knew there would be dents and scratches...But even it I had not done that...it still would not have mattered.
Your life has been changed forever...new eyes, just like when you got back from Bosnia...new new eyes...and I rejoice with you. Love, Patti